.Monday, April 28, 2008
ageing :(
2004
2007
2008
yes the point of this?
it's terrible to see how much i've aged over the years!
at least from 2004 to 2007, i've matured.
but from 2007 to 2008 (ever since uni started), I'VE AGED and got chubbier.
sorry adeline yeong for putting you in every photo as well.
WE'VE AGED. :(
this is terrible. the increase in stress, homework and readings have caused detrimental and irreversible effects.
by the time i'm married, i'll probably look like an old haggg. ohhelp!
sleeping early and drinking water is the trick.
maybe not leaving the readings till last minute might help a little as well (:
but the point is, looking back at all the photos, i've seen how much i've aged over the years. soyes.
thai paper today is probably the only paper i will step out of the examination hall smiling. (:
until i get my results back that is.
everyone thought it was easy so for the sake of the bellcurve, wish me luck.
i'm dying stydying my japanese studies :( all the names of the shoguns and the literature writers. HELPME!
social work, geography and soci back to back next week.
then i'll smel freedom (:
28 april 08 - thai examination YAYNESS (:
30 april 08 - japanese studies DAMN SCREWED :(
6 may 08 - social work DAMN THE TUMMYACHE.
7 may 08 - tourism geography
8 may 08 - sociology of family
8 may 08 3pm = HAPPINESS (:
so yes. my dearest friends, you can ALL go shopping, mambo-ing, movie watching WITHOUT me on the 7th :( i'll suffer in silence for one more day. just one more day.
haha. i couldn't resist. (:
i can't wait to see my girlfriend tomorrow.
i haven't seen her for a week.
(: it's 2 weeks back still (:
spread the love at 9:40 PM Y
.Sunday, April 27, 2008
love = trust.
I HATE STUDYING!wo bu xi huan du shu!chan may choop rian!LOOK I'M TRI-LINGUAL!
whatever.
studying has been terrible.
and it definitely doesn't help with the horrible sleep i've been having.
the viral infection in the damn stomach. - it's a symptom of puking everything you eat including plain water. danggit.
and me not being able to si up and read for more than 2 hours.
i hate this i hate this i hate this.
i havent' met up with many people during this time and it's very depressing.
i havent' been seeing MUCH of babee as well.
but marc and i had a wonderful talk the other day.
emotional but it was good (: cos now i feel a lot happier and a lot of love in my life (:
i've been happy (:
baby thought me one thing:
LOVE=TRUSTfirst i contested it.i can love without trusting the person 100%.
i can love. but am i 100% happy? am i able to enjoy the company of the person 100%?
what exactly is love? it's damn a lot of emotions put into one person and the willingness to look pass the flaws and continue to love the person. willingness to build back the trust once broken. that's love.
now i believe it.now don't get me wrong. trust does not equal to love.
just like how a block mountain is a plateau but a plateau is not necessarily a block mountain.
it doesn't mean that we love everyone we trust.
but trust is a big word. i trust everyone unless the break my trust.
then it's up to love to see if i want to mend the relationship and build up that trust again.
so yes. why am i talking about love in the midst of my exams?
cos i suddenly feel very loved (:
i've been thinking about it quite a lot.
i'm actually very fortunate. i have mummy&daddy&grandmama&grandpapa who love me.
i got a damn sweet, loving, caring and patient boyfriend who loves me.
i've got a damn caring, sweet, cute and trustworthy girlfriend/best friend who loves me. I MISS YEONG LELE. last i saw her was the day i fell sick :(
and i've got damn good friends who care and love me as well (:
not many i have to say, but i'm contented with this close circle of mine (:
today, church was good.
the speaker was hilarious and used really life examples on faith (:
marc baby went to church with me.
went for lunch which wasn't exactly fantastic again. boo.
headed home. damn tired. napped.
studied my thai and did my final revision paper. I WROTE A COMPO IN THAI (:
dahling was sleeping like a baby.
went down for dinner after that and watched half of the wind in the willows the movie and headed up to read my notes again.
i'm brain drained.
anyway, back to japanese studies and the tokugawa history together with the kamakura and taira period :(
HAVE I MENTIONED I HATE STUDYING?
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.Tuesday, April 22, 2008
i think i'm terribly insane.
the examinations are just around the little corner and i'm doing things that i shouldn't be doing.
i'm working for one.
work's fine actually.
i study in the day and work at night when my brain juices are on the verge of drying up.
though i look like crap at work. zombified. horrible.
work ended early on saturday and instead of going home to sleep,
marc babee and i went to st james. HAHA.
kill me. as guilty as i felt, i needed to loosen up. studying all day was really getting in the way.
we left early though so it wasn't so bad.
besides, what was i going to do when i got home anyway? watch tv and what not.
it was fun (: real fun.
sunday was spent with my head sunk into my japanese studies notes.
i've read all the Japanese literature, all the "readings" on Japanese society.
stayed home the whole day. i felt like i was rotting in some sense. my goodness me.
monday was terrible. i was stuck in my room.
the weather was just so fine for sleeping. and i wanted to sleep.
i read my Japanese history notes and a little here and there on linguistics.
i'm bored. very bored. i can't wait to move on to thai or something else.
examinations are horrible. period.
went to work again. HAHA.
curtis stone is cute (:
"i'm hungry, can i go eat first?" - utt.
i felt bigg next to him :( boo.
anyway, babee and i had free ride home on cabbie cos we ended work late.
had orh luak at makan sutra (ade's spelling of that word is damn funny)
ps: lele, i only had craving for that when i thought of the cross word puzzle we were doing at the business library that time (:
home sweet home (:
today. woke up bright and early hoping to study.
but as unlucky as i always am during the examination period, i had MAJOR cramps.
and i was bedridden. seriously. i couldn't even roll around or what.
it was a mix of feeling damn hot and cold at the same time.
thankgoodness for babee's waterbag (: haha. i heart heart the water bag.
makes my tummy feel all so nice and warm and yet at the same time, i can sit under the huge fan and enjoy the cold wind.
hot&cold feeling settled.
didn't study today. shite. have to make up for it tomorrow and all the other days.
work tonight again. last day before my exams start.
feel kinda bad i can't help out for thursday as well.
but what to do.
other then that, life's been fine. crappy.
soci essay will be back tomorrow! :(
i wonder if i'll get my B!
i need my 3months holiday, PRONTO.
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.Saturday, April 19, 2008
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arghh. chan may choop rian! may choop may choop!
i'm stressed. i'm pmsing.
the exams will be here and gone in 18days.
DAMNIT.
i need a break. i need my 3months holiday.
i feel stifled. i feel so f-ed up. excuse the language. damnit!
did you ever feel like breaking down? do you ever feel out of place? like somehow you just don't belong and no one understands you do you ever wanna run away? do you lock yourself in your room with the radio on turned up so loud that no one hears you screaming no you don't know what it's like when nothing feels alright you don't know what it's like to be like me to be hurt, to feel lost to be left out in the dark, to be kicked when your down. to feel like you've been pushed around to be at the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you no you don't know what it's like welcome to my life.
on a brighter note.
went out with my girls last night (:
bukit timah market has the most wonderful and yummylicious food ever.
we had a voting system on which carrot cake was the best.
standard of fried kway tiao went down a little.
hokkien mee rocks! (:
sat around the playground and talked nonsense.
friday's our market day!
after i reached home was back to reality.
my fairytale life was over.
back to facing the damn laptop and the stack of notes on my table.
all untouched. unread. i need help!
serious help.
spread the love at 12:57 PM Y
.Wednesday, April 16, 2008
& then i disappeared again.
i was gone for a substantial amount of time haven't i?
life has just been way too hectic to my liking with many many projects due and what not.
but my point of coming back is not to ramble on the fact that i have manymany things to do.
the changing gender roles in the developed regions.
some pictures which i love from
gettyimages (: the moving away from the expectation that women are the sole domestic manager and caregiver. men are behaving the ways fathers should (:
i found some other pictures that move slightly away from perception of love.
when people think of love, they think of romance, courtship and the likes of that.
but when i searched for "love", i got a whole new perception of love.
till next time (:
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